One thing I’ve learned from life is that it doesn’t always go as planned. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing depending on what point of view you see it from. I have officially decided to quit school and focus on making a business from my passion for baking. Trust me this decision didn’t come easy for me.
Throughout my childhood all I wanted to be was a doctor. I would’ve never thought in a million years that I would become a baker. Especially since I was basically a walking encyclopedia of anything relating to science (I was kinda a nerd). This started to change when I started high school. I wasn’t much of a social butterfly so much my social life was on the small side. Classes started to become long and mundane; and I wasn’t interested in joining any clubs or sports. So all I basically did was go to school, study, and sleep. This is when I accidently discovered my love for baking.
On one random Saturday, I had a serious craving for some cake. I saw that there was a chocolate cake mix sitting in the cabinet for a while. My dad was the one who usually cooked and baked at that time. He said that he would bake the cake when he wasn’t busy. Being as impatient as I was, I asked if I could do it for him and he agreed. I just remember how nervous I was that first time baking by myself. I kept thinking, “what if I screw up?”. Even though it was made from a cake mix I felt the pressure of having the cake come out perfect. When the cake was finally done, iced and all, everyone got a slice. They all took a bite and loved it! All of my anxiety melted away and was replaced by a warm feeling in my heart.
From that point I became the baker of the house. I completely dove into the baking world. Everything was so new and exciting, I wanted to bake every recipe I could find. I started to collect all cookbooks and baking supplies. My love for baking became so huge that I started to sell cupcakes and cookies at school. It was exciting to be known as the school baker. Fellow classmates and teachers would often buy my treats.
Eventually I stopped baking during my junior and senior because I felt the pressure of having good grades so I put school before my passion. During that time I fell back to my ‘go to school, study, and sleep’ routine. Soon enough I got accepted to Penn State and couldn’t wait to go to college. The next year I packed my bags and shipped out to Pennsylvania. The excitement of being a freshmen and on my own for the first time died down around my second semester. I quickly began to struggle in most of my classes. Regardless of how many hours I stayed in the library and got tutoring. I still couldn’t make decent scores on my tests. By my sophomore year I fell into a deep depression. I barely made it on time for classes and studied less. My physical and mental health started to deteriorate at a very dangerous level . I stopped exercising at a regular basis and gained over 50 pounds over the school year. I literally ate myself away. Luckily my parents saw what school was doing to me. When I came home for summer break my dad sat me down and we talked. My dad asked me, “what is your passion?”. Throughout my entire life my parents drilled into our heads to “Make your passion your career”. Clearly medicine wasn’t my passion, no matter how hard I wished it to be. I had come to terms and be honest with myself that medicine wasn’t going to work for me. When I decided to pursue baking I was both relieved and terrified. I no longer had to stick to a career that I didn’t love but now I have to start from scratch.
I have become a college dropout and I’m no longer embarrassed to say it. I’m a college dropout with a purpose and a dream that I WILL succeed in. I know that pursuing my dreams will take a lot of hard work and sacrifice. I don’t expect live to be easier from dropping out but now when I wake up in the morning I have new goals, purpose, and dreams. I know that all the up’s and downs will be worth it in the end. Even if it doesn’t work out I can say,”At least I tried”.
Now it’s time for me to start anew with a new blog, new passion, a new life. I created The Sweet Proposal because I am more than happy to spend the rest of my life baking.